Drift of Worry, Tides of Trust

Good Mornin'

Well, mild and clear, with only gentle breezes stirring. Rose a little slow and sore, but only natural, spring time, a day spent whackin' sage, try to clear another patch of grass for the boys. Just kind of ate, piece meal, small fire in the summer pit, as I pulled off boots and clothes, between makin' toast, heatin' beans and rice, half and ear on my heart teacher's voice, driftin' from my old cassette player, 'fore I ended up in a heap on my cot; generally fed, teethed brushed, face washed and way ready to sleep and consult, events and advice, creature, creator, friends.

I could feel my thoughts startin' to drift to the "worry side" as the day wore on and, I suppose, with time and tide, I've learned to count on the counsel of rest and prayer, diffuse and expose it, as a matter of time and perspective.

And, I did get to play with the boys, briefly, 'fore the evenin' gave way to night. And, like the pearl, formed by layer, or maybe, the onion, reduced, just a little closer, just a little more trust, just a little more confidence, revealed, in little gestures, of comfort and conversation. And, I'd like ta say, most in the eye of Ruben; that moment, after a go round or two, where I'm like to kneel and he's like to approach, for a moment willing to rest. Just a small space in time, he considers us together and willin', trade story and his twinkles, like a star from his heart through his eyes, like a signal from space, I long to decipher; the longing itself, understood as enough, a promise to be explored. Truly, priceless. But, Julio, too, in his own way, happy to be himself; jump a little less, express a little more, go through our rituals of groomin' and dancin', confident in the dimensions, sure of a flake when we're done. He's got a different way, his own star, his own corner of space, but there too, a story, a worry unfolds; possibility of good together.

So, maybe it's similar for all three of us; explorin' together, learnin' "relax". Stretchin' the moments into a life, day by day, just a little more. And, same way, I try, raise the bar, just a little for them and Creator seems to raise it for me.

Have a great day!

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